{"id":279,"date":"2010-05-10T08:02:00","date_gmt":"2010-05-10T14:02:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/?p=279"},"modified":"2010-05-12T14:56:34","modified_gmt":"2010-05-12T20:56:34","slug":"59-the-gddess-in-the-desert","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/?p=279","title":{"rendered":"#59: The G*ddess in the Desert"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_334\" style=\"width: 259px\" class=\"wp-caption alignleft\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/The-Journey-Begins1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-334\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-334\" title=\"The Journey Begins\" src=\"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/The-Journey-Begins1-249x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"249\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/The-Journey-Begins1-249x300.jpg 249w, http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/The-Journey-Begins1.jpg 575w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 249px) 100vw, 249px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-334\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">The Journey Begins (Cutts)<\/p><\/div>\n<p>It has been some time since my last post in which I asked the question \u201cWhat is your emotional, physical, or spiritual equivalent of jumping out of an airplane?\u201d I wish I could say you had not heard back from me because I was completing a jump, but the truth is I am actually writing you <strong>during<\/strong> my free fall. My\u00a0landing is not even in sight! You see for me my emotional and spiritual equivalent is doing whatever is hardest and most needed in any given moment. After a long period of avoidance I finally took the jump and have been going inside to wrestle with some demons that directly affect the\u00a0living of my vision. I have written about all of them over various posts but I am going to go ahead and name them here.\u00a0 These demons are called Ego, self-doubt, and fear, and they have been dogging my every step for some time. Somehow I manage to move on with them but the time has come to\u00a0address them seriously.\u00a0 So what am I doing to face them?<\/p>\n<p>I am stepping up my spiritual program; have employed a coach, a hypno-therapist and am doing some intensive self study, through reading and meditation. The result of all this work? I wish I could say that I am at peace, but the truth is, as I poke at the demons they seem to be digging in, flaring up and acting out! I am feeling unclear, unsettled, irritable and uneasy! I guess they are not going to go quietly\u2026but this is okay. By living my vision I get to participate in the archetypal heroine\u2019s quest, in which these battles are never easily won.<\/p>\n<p>Frankly it makes it difficult to write when I feel all over the place but I felt that I must at least attempt in an effort to be true to this blog and ultimately to my vision. So in many ways I feel as if my journey begins again\u2026and again and right now I am in the wilderness.\u00a0 If you have any experience with this I\u2019d love to hear about it.\u00a0 Please leave a comment here<\/p>\n<p>(first posted 11.7.09)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It has been some time since my last post in which I asked the question \u201cWhat is your emotional, physical, or spiritual equivalent of jumping out of an airplane?\u201d I wish I could say you had not heard back from &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/?p=279\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-279","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=279"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":335,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279\/revisions\/335"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=279"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=279"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.nicolecutts.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=279"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}