Do you ever feel like giving up on your Vision?
I wanted to call this post WTF?! (F stands for fudge of course) but decided that was not a good idea. Since my last post there have been many ups and downs and frankly I have not felt like writing. A big part of this apprehension lay in the fact that I did not want to write about anything negative in my blog…BUT, that is not being true to the nature of this blog, which is meant to chronicle the journey of one living her Vision. The intent of the blog is to tell a story that hopefully others can identify with and get something from. Therefore I can not pretend that living my Vision is always easy or fun.
When I returned from my wonderful trip to L.A. it was time to get down to marketing the first Women’s Success Retreat to be held Oct. 23-25. The way I saw it I did not have much time. I began my marketing efforts in earnest. Newsletter, facebook, twitter, a couple listserves, word of mouth etc. Maybe I expected too much but basically I felt like I was shouting into a canyon and hearing crickets chirping back…nothing! Hello? I began to wonder…is anyone out there? Really worse than that I began to wonder…does anyone out there need what I am offering? Am I useful? I thought I had a purpose, a mission but maybe I was/am wrong. Self doubt and doubt of my vision began to loom larger and larger and I went down. Suddenly I did not feel so confident. Usually I am very confident that I can pull of anything I undertake but suddenly that was gone and the fear of failure stood in its place. I gave into this for a few days but have now regrouped.
This is the deal. I AM living my Vision! No one said it would be easy or that I would always meet with immediate success. I will try my best to be true to myself and my Vision and work as hard as I can to be of service to others. I do not control the whole thing. I believe that my Higher Power will take it from there. I may succeed in the way I think I should or She/He/It may have different plans for me…that is the deal with being human.
Is my work done? No I have much to do on both the physical and spiritual plain. Physically I have to get off my but and market this retreat. Spiritually I have to pray and meditate and keep my channels clean and open to be guided as to what my next steps should be and then I need the power to carry that out.
I’m off to bed now because I have a coaching client early in the morning downtown and then a workshop later in the day. I will be on the look-out for the miracles this week.
Wish me luck as I do the same for you!
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(first posted 9.7.09)
